Wow. It's been quite awhile since I last updated my blog! I would apologize if I thought anyone actually read it, but... well, on the slim chance that someone actually does, I'm sorry!
Life. It's been very challenging. As some of you know, I've been actively pursuing photography for awhile now, and honestly it's going as well (if not better) than could be expected. I've been blessed with the temporary use of a camera (for those interested, it's the Nikon D60), and being given that opportunity has only confirmed all the more to me that this is something I feel God has placed before me for me to pursue. I've prayed about it, and it just seems like every door leading to photography is opened wide for me to pass through. I am SO grateful for the kindness, generosity, and support so many have shown me, and for the grace and mercy of God to make His way so clear.
As I said though, it's been challenging. The mere interaction with so many different individuals (many strangers) just in the learning process of photography (though I know I'll never achieve all knowledge of the craft, I hope to at least have the basics down at some point, lol), and anticipating many many more such interactions as a professional photographer... it's intimidating to say the least. To suddenly have people depending on me and expecting so much when I feel so inadequate to fulfill their expectations/requests... yeah, it's definitely a challenge! But I find that it is during the times of greatest challenge in life, and the abandonment of my comfy safe zone that I grow the most, and that I learn the most. But that doesn't make it any less easy! I'm still nervous and intimidated.
Yes, even talkative me is shy and quiet at times (feel free to gasp in astonishment)!
I'm not too far off from buying my own camera-- not exactly the one I really want, but it will do the job nicely till I can actually afford the one I want. I've been asked to take pictures of a family of 10 (my "biggest" challenge yet!) and some others are waiting on me to get it together to take their pictures (or the more professional way to say it, "photograph them"... or shoot, whichever you prefer).
In the midst of all this and other various goings on, I am trying to be careful to not get caught up in the "big, important things" that I miss the things that are really truly important in life. It's been a test of priorities, and yet another challenge. It's teaching me to consider carefully what I value most. Being "successful," or "important" are not my goals. And yet, especially as I learn from other photographers whose goals and priorities are very much different then my own, it can be hard to not get caught up in it all as they have and be swept away in the mad search for fulfillment and satisfaction in "success."
As a child of God, simply put, my purpose/goal is to maintain a close relationship with Him and His people, and to lead others to discover, as I have, the wonder of a love relationship with the God of the universe. Being a photographer only defines the ways in which I fulfill that purpose! Oh that I may not lose sight of Him and His will in this mad world!
If you feel like there was little or no point to this post... well, it's probably because I'm not sure what the point was, I just felt like it was time for a new blog post. :)
If you will, please be praying for continued guidance and provision on my behalf. Thanks for reading!
~Victoria Christine Bullock
